A Thousand Splendid Suns Indeed

So after almost a whole year of trying to get my hands on a copy of A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini from my campus library, because its always out, I finally did and maaan I gotta say it was worth the wait.
I first heard about the book on a local talk show, some ladies who are in a book club had just read it and where giving their views on the book. At that point I only wanted to read it because people belonging to a book club had read it and I thought that it must be brilliant since they even came to a talk show to talk about their latest read. I went on to search for the book at my library, and goodness me the back flips that my heart did when the system showed that my campus had the book!! But sadly it was out. I didn't care if it were out then, all that mattered was that we had it and I could soon get my hands on it, but little did I know what a long wait it would be.
But anyway, despite the long wait, I finally managed to get my hands on a copy and it felt like I was being reconnected with a long lost friend after years and years of searching. I remember smiling all the way home with that book in my bag. I simply could not wait to get home and read it.

What a beautiful composition of words lie in the pages of A Thousand Splendid Suns. Within the first few pages of reading I had already fallen in love with Hossein's style of writing. The way he so simply allows you to learn the language of the Afghans. He lets the reader connect the dots, doesn't give off too much information so as to spoil the story. I found that quite intriguing. I also fell in love with Miriam, one of the leading characters. She has got such a sad story, one that is apparently like many other Afghan women. It pains me to think that girls as young as 14 have to bare the burdens that old and matured women bare. Women who have lived and gathered enough wisdom in their years to face a tough life. What's more saddening is the fact that they don't have a say in the matter. Your personality, dreams and hopes are all shattered when your parents decide that you are ready to be married off.
Khaled tells the story of Meriam and Leila like only an insider would reveal the happenings of a secret society. He lets us in on the pain and suffering that these two women go through in their sudden change of life. He also shares their love and laughter as well. I being the emotional reader that I am, felt so connected to the characters. I could not contain my tears when Laila had to leave Aziza at the orphanage. That was such an extremely sad scene. I felt like I was both Aziza and Laila. Like Aziza because I know what it feels like to part with your mom and not knowing when you're going to see her again and with Laila I could just imagine how hard it must be having to appear strong in front of your daughter when you know very well that inside you're dying. Such pillars of strength women are.

But to say the least without giving away too much of the book I suggest you get yourself acquainted with the book. Its brilliant. I absolutely loved reading every bit of it. When I turned the page to read the last bit of writing it felt like those last few moments you spend with your bestfriend just before she's about to leave for another country *sob sob*. What I parted with from this book was that indeed we go through storms which at that time seem like they're never going to end BUT there are a thousand splendid suns that are yet to shine upon us :)

My Lust & Aversion For Life

Life, the very thing that we ought to appreciate, love, grasp with the tightest hold but yet somehow manoeuvre through with utmost ease and care because it can be so fragile and slip away on your guard. This beautiful life, the very one and only one you're given has a very funny way of just switching up on you and leave you with you with hands over head and jaw right at your feet. Or is it us that change towards life? You can just never be certain of anything while you're still on this life. The one minute you think you're at the peak of it and all is swell but the next thing you are rock bottom and everything is spinning out of control, and THAT is where I just lose my mind.
I'm not one who is fascinated by power, the 'exhilarating feeling of knowing YOU are in control' as those who love it explain it. It just doesn't excite me as much. Yeah sure I'd like to think I have some control over things such as  my studies, finances, love life and the like. I say some control because there are just so many factors to one area in my life. My studies for example, yes I'm responsible and have control over things such as making sure I have the study material and I study but I have no control over events that lead up to me being unable to study for one. I don't have control over me falling sick and therefore rendering me unable to study for my test, or in my attempt to study I do grasp the information but then being unable to produce it on paper because of some mental block that was caused by the sickens. I'm just saying you know, just throwing it out there. There are way too many things that can cause a person to lose control of things they thought they had control over.
But anyway back to my point, power doesn't excite me but I'm a huge fan of consistency. I cannot take it when things are a gigantic twirl of a non-stop roallercoaster. Some may say this is the beauty of it all but OMG it irks me to the core. I like knowing that 'ok right now we are in a bit of a tussle with life, just keep pushing' and then later on 'right now we are entering a very pleasurable state of mind and all is well'. Kinda like when you're in a plane or bus; "there is anticipated turbulence ahead, please stay seated fasten your safety belts and remain calm", "the cabin crew will be coming around in about twenty minutes time to offer you a light snack and beverage,until then, sit back, relax and enjoy the rest of the flight". I dunno man, something of that sort, you are warned the good and bad. For the sake of one's sanity is what its all about to me.
The only constant thing right now is the inconsistency of my life right now. The one minute I'm happy, all is fine and dandy and the next I just want to crawl into the next rabbit hole and stay there until whatever I'll be going through passes. Endurance is what I lack a friend of mine once said but I beg to differ. Endure craziness?! Endure the mess of a life that you're living?! Well I think not!! If there are people out there who are living in a dream each day, no problems none whatsoever, with exceptions of inevitable ones of which you are aware of, then honey I want that sweet life too. Too dreamy a state of mind I thought to myself the other day but I came back to my senses and assured myself that it honestly is attainable.
This madness called life sometimes makes me feel like I'm bipolar at times. I resent how I would be yearning to go out and just live. Just BE, see the world, spend time with loved ones, read, write, listen to all the beautiful music in the world and then I swear its like someone would say ' hold up lil Missy, who do you think you are, deserving of all this joy you dream about?!' and then they would slap me with a problem that would then send me in some sort of dizzy spell and my world comes crumbling down. Uuuurgggg!!! Totally hate that!
I refuse to let my thirst for life be quenched with unwelcomed obstacles. Can a sister just live though?! GOODNESS!!

Long Time No Blog

Woow, it has been too long a minute since I checked out my blog or just written anything!! Oh how I surely did miss the thrill that comes with sitting in front of the pc screen and pour out my thoughts onto these willing keyboard buttons *sigh*.
A good 7 months it has been I must say and oh soooo much has happened. What in the world was I thinking abandoning my online diary like that?! It is totally and completely unacceptable. I vow to blog so much it turn into a habbit from now on. Ok I must admit that sounds a bit geeky and lifeless but I shall do it nonetheless. For my sanity and just to keep it as a way for me to introspect. No matter how good or how bad life gets, I promise to never disown my blog, well for at least such a long period of time.This is my sanctuary, my place of relief and just pouring it all out without sifting anything. Just all bare, naked and RAW!!! *raawwwrrrr*
But where shall I start though? So much has happened...