"Snap out of it" that's my daily fix. I can't go a day without saying it of late. I feel like everything is a dream. Me sitting here in front of this PC is as real as it gets but somewhere in the back of my mind I'm having a conversation about how this is a dream and I'm gon wake up in just a bit.
When I google diagnose myself its called depersonalisation. What the heck is that?! I feel like I'm losing my marbles..how many did I have to start with. Good gosh, where do we keep these marbles in the first place for us to start noticing that we're losing them :/ Somebody point me to my marble jar and to he who has all their marbles so I can do reference stock taking.
No seriously though, I'm having the time of my life where I'm at. I'm finally free and doing what makes me happy, answering to no one but the Almighty Himself. Why would such a thing creep up on me like that?! Can I live?! Can I be at a place where the normal operation of my psyche is not threatened by such a "disorder".
Alas my beautiful mind, you are free. Worry not about anyone nor anything else depriving you of your happiness. You have set yourself free from the chains of society where "normal" is celebrated and weird is frowned upon. In fact thou art not weird, thou art different and that is no different from being absolutely awesome. So relax...allow your mind to dance to the unending song of freedom. A free mind, body and soul. You know that is your ultimate dream, to be smack dab at the centre of liberty's party. Take off your clothes and feel the music through your skin. Let your brazen self show off her moves because the whole world ought to see all this. Mick Jagger ain't got nothing on you child, move...move, dammit move to the rhythm of the beat. Listen to that, look around, do you see that? Do you taste that? Its different right? Honey boo that's called freedom and you better get used to it. You are not dreaming because this is as real as it gets. Get used to it.
